A textbook example of the devastating power of that mindset can be found in the story of Doug Jackson, M.D., a respected family physician in a small northern Michigan community. Jackson recalled having his first serious depression as a child. The episodes continued through medical school and into many years as a caring, hardworking doctor devoted to his patients. Unlike many depressed physicians, Jackson sought psychiatric treatment, but he was fearful of disclosing his diagnosis to his partners, his patients, and to the hospital where he worked. He drove to other towns to fill his prescriptions; he paid with cash.
In 2001, deeply depressed and suicidal, Jackson was admitted to an inpatient psychiatric unit and his world began to come undone. “His hospitalization made it very difficult for the secrecy to continue, and that’s when things got ugly with our three partners,” says Loretta Leja (pronounced “LEE-jay”), Jackson’s physician-wife who also worked with him. “During his hospitalization, they decided that they did not want Doug back in practice. They were annoyed that they had to cover for him in his absence.” The partnership dissolved, but not long after Jackson was back at work, seeing patients and doing well.
Several months later, a peer review action was initiated against him. The source of the complaint was never identified, Leja says. Having served as chief of staff at his hospital for six years, as well as president of the state family medicine organization, Jackson’s investigation was “particularly shameful,” she adds. Despite a private conversation with the chief of surgery and obstetrics, who told Leja that he’d never had any doubts about her husband’s care of his patients, Jackson was monitored. Though compliant with his medication, Jackson became more guarded with his psychiatric appointments, aware that anything he said to his psychiatrist might be reported to the peer review committee.
Jackson committed suicide in July 2002. In addition to his wife, he left behind three children and a stunned, saddened community that had no idea that this dedicated family doctor had been suffering so long in silence.
When asked if she believes the stress of the peer review contributed to her husband’s death, Leja pauses. “I don’t know,” she says quietly, “but we, as a profession, need to help each other rather than discipline each other on this issue.”
Not long after her husband’s death, Leja attended a meeting of the Michigan Academy of Family Physicians, where Schwenk, a speaker, mentioned his involvement with the U-M Depression Center. Leja approached him and told him that further research on physician depression was badly needed. At her urging, Schwenk led an initial study of Michigan physicians that was completed in 2008 and set the stage for the medical student stigma study.
On a cold afternoon late last year, Schwenk took to the podium for a Seminars in Medicine lecture for third-year students. Held every Friday, these lectures mark the end of each long and exhausting week, and students are typically happy to forego the question-and-answer section in favor of ending class early. Schwenk’s presentation ended differently.
After spending an hour sharing the results of the stigma study with the students, and talking frankly about some very uncomfortable topics, Schwenk perched on a low wall in front of the class and asked for questions and feedback. After several long moments of pin-drop silence, people started talking.
The questions and comments fairly flew. About the desire to appear strong and in control at all times. About the impossibility of getting help when you aren’t in control of your own schedule from week to week. About the pressure to do research when you have neither the time nor the interest. About how there’s always someone more tired than you, so it’s best never to complain.
Schwenk doesn’t hide his admiration for the students he works with. “If I were applying to this medical school today, I wouldn’t get in,” he laughs. “We select students who are self-motivated. We train them to assume responsibility for very demanding situations at a very early point in their training. The notion that you are not up to it or feel inadequate or are not functioning at your fullest level — that’s not a concept we deal with very well.”
All of which, Schwenk says, makes the study’s findings — that stigma about depression is alive and well in the U-M Medical School — not too surprising.
“What it speaks to is the very intense, very demanding nature of medical education,” he says. “Students feel under tremendous scrutiny and feel like there is tremendous pressure to be perfect. The amazing senior physicians they see every day make them feel like they’re always falling short. We tell our students how remarkable they are and, in the process, make them feel completely inadequate.
“How do physicians ask for help,” Schwenk wonders, “when they’re told every day that they have to be perfect?”
The Dangers of Disclosure
Leslie Wimsatt, Ph.D., also contributed to this study and was co-author of the published results in the Journal of the American Medical Association.